a.s.: Not intended to hurt anybody's religious, national, nationalist, pesudo nationalist sentiments.
I am an average Indian woman, a Catholic Christian who loves her
country and religion equally. Why I use the word 'average' here is to
say that I am not rebellious. I am what others would term me as
"Sick"ular. I was born in this country and I take equal pride in that,
like every Indian does. I take equal pride in my religion which I
profess, within the confines of my conscience and my domicile. I do not
gloat about my religion, nor do I stupidly shove it on anyone's face.
This sadly was a free country, till the lotus started blooming. The
Bhakts, Bhakras and the trousers DO NOT signify Hinduism. To me, the
lovely Vembu akka and her husband Azhagiyanambi in whose house I crawled
and I salivated are Gods. Sankari auntie and her Diwali sweets always
have a special place in my memories and so is our neighborhood Bhai's
biryani for Ramzan. I never had to differentiate between Maariammal who
cared for my brother as a child or Maria amma who was our domestic help
for ages. They all are fellow humans. Not a step above, not a step
below. I have been taught to treat everyone as equal. Sadly, most
households have failed on that.
I have been to temples and I can
recite Gayathri Mantra as any Hindu does. I celebrate all festivals,
yes, I am 'sick'ular. I have read a few Suras and I can understand the
journey of Abrahamic religions and no thanks, Mr Zakir Naik, I DO NOT
need your help in understanding the Kuran. I find myself living in a
nation whose collective conscience has hanged Afzal Guru. Please DO NOT
jump the gun here. This word has been 'imbibed' in the judgement of
Supreme Court in Afzal Guru case. Neither do I glorify terrorism nor do I
promote anti-nationalism when I say Kashmiris should be given the right
to decide on their nationality, I am only reminding us of Nehru's stand
on the issue as he himself has promised the UN on Kashmir.
We
hang on to the issue of Kashmir as if it is a lifeline, a bone of
contention with two neighboring countries, only because of its strategic
border location, unmindful of our army men subject to inhuman
conditions- all for pride. The pride that the nation belongs to you and
me and we would protect it at all costs, be it the lives of 800 men who
have laid down their lives. If raising slogans is 'sedition' then how
should we name those instigating the minorities and students raise them?
I feel unsafe in a country where I was born and I am right in every way
when I blame the RSS and ABVP.
Call me a traitor, call me a
'sick'ular. I am tolerant. I have been tolerating the pesudo-Hindus and
their pseudo-Hindutva for a long long time. So I am 'sick'ular. When the
free thinkers, social activists, students, writers and creative people
are termed 'Chinese and Russian stooges', then we all are equally guilty
of having 'free thinking'. If free thinking and questioning the
establishment is 'anti-national' then I am sorry- I am 'aunty'-national!
I am still proud of my country and my religion and I shall silently
await the next elections to show my 'sick'ularism.
- By 'aunty' national ;)
Very nicely articulated thoughts and words!
ReplyDeleteAnd now, even I am waiting for the next elections :/
Thank you dreamzandclouds for your visit and comment. An arduous wait for the next elections is all that we can do now!
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